I've created this post dozens of times in my head. I've pondered the ways Ahead of the Wave might come to its natural end. Would my final post pop with a profound bang or whimper out with a pathetic fizzle? Perhaps somewhere in between?
1001 posts over five years.....what have I learned? What's different about my life now? Have I grown? Or am I the same person? Furthermore, does anyone care?
Here's what I know.....
1. Blogging is mostly fun.
2. Sometimes I've lots to say, sometimes there is nothing to say.
3. Blogging can create unwanted pressure.
4. My truest self comes out on these pages but still, it isn't all me. I hold back.
5. Fundamentally, I'm very opinionated. And, probably mean. Two people near and dear to me remind of this all the time.
6. I miss my Mom; a lot. There are still questions I need to ask her and wisdom I could use.
7. My Dad is a love but he cannot hear. Screaming at him is irksome, beyond belief.
8. I'm happy with myself and what I believe.
9. I may want to be eternally ahead of the wave but realize this isn't realistic and not really desireable in the end. Life is short; being buried by the wave at times is what makes each day new.
10. Christmas is my least favorite time of year. In fact this Christmas 2012 was the worst Christmas ever. That's why there's the day before Thanksgiving; a truly blessed day.
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Much love to all and thanks for reading!
Ending and beginning ~ two sides to the same coin. Good luck to you, Kate.
ReplyDeleteI don't think you're mean. I like your list. You have alot on your mind and you are right about Dad. He can't hear a thing. Have to speak in shorter and shorter sound bites.
ReplyDeleteHopefully not the final post (Tina)
ReplyDeleteLoved your blog! Good luck on what comes next!! :)
ReplyDelete-Chris
"Often when you think you're at the end of something, you're at the beginning of something else... My hope for all of us is that 'the miles we go before we sleep' will be filled with all the feelings that come from deep caring – delight, sadness, joy, wisdom – and that in all the endings of your life, we will be able to see the new beginnings." ~Mister Rogers
ReplyDeleteI have enjoyed your blog, Kate. Here's to new beginnings. Much love to you.
Tina