Yikes. I'll need to take the bull by the proverbial horns with the prompt for the day. Writing about my challenge of the year is a challenge itself; I ask myself how much do I reveal? In the end raw honesty rules because I'm not ashamed of my challenge and I'm not afraid to say I made it through the rough patch of 2009 a stronger person. So be it.
Challenge. Something that really made you grow this year. That made you go to your edge and then some.What made it the best challenge of the year for you?
Depression is an illness, a treatable condition, a potentially life threatening disease.
I know this miserable state of being inside and out. For the last few years I've been in the grip of its jaws more than I have been free of its tenacious hold on me. Summer 2009 was a turning point when my world felt like it was crashing down around me, when hope literally dried up, when my soul asked only to be free of never ending emotional pain.
My biggest challenge was to listen to my heart, to hear the concerned words of people who love me, and to take one tiny step, and then another, and then another to reach a point where I laid myself bare, vulnerable and empty of spirit. I asked for help, knocked down the walls around me, and cried out, "Tell me what to do and I'll do it." The courage to walk away from what wasn't working and forge into what was to be the healing unknown was the challenge.
I am well. I am well again.
Oh, Kate! You are so brave.
ReplyDelete"The courage to walk away from what wasn't working and forge into what was to be the healing unknown was the challenge." It takes a special person to meet this challenge. So glad you are well and willing to share.
ReplyDeleteAgain and again your prose reads like poetry to tell your story. Beautiful.
I am all for honesty too, and that can be both harder and easier on a blog. But those eyes who see it, your commenters, as far as I can tell, are safe company. I read here through that time and what I saw was courage and sense and grief, all part of a full life as horrible as it was.. and though I can't begin to know all the things at work, it seemed like there were very legitimate things going on to make you feel that way.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad there has been such a joyful engagement and wedding in the mix of this year... Here's to a really wonderful holiday too. Hugs from Syd
Oh I love the honesty in this post. You are well, very well. thank you for showing a piece of your spirit. be well.
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