Hmmmmm. I'm looking for a word that consistently describes life during all 12 months. There were "the best of times and the worst of times" during 2009 but picking a word or phrase from the best of the best or the worst of the worst would not be fair representation of the entire year. So, I'm still thinking......but I know what I want to say and will simply throw it out there in a moment of raw honesty.
2009 was overrun with drama.
Mini-drama, drama, and huge drama. Drama in the sense that made me ask.....what in the world can I do about this problem? Nothing. Why does this angst keep surfacing? Why is this misery coming my way? Drama that made me yearn for just a few days of down time from the never ending issues, problems, unhappiness of others. Am I the grand repository for all things miserable, I had to ask?
Reprieve and relief from drama are not in my future for 2010 unless I make a conscious decision to extricate myself from the intoxicating, but unhealthy pull of full on engagement with the woes seemingly inherent in my roles as mother-to-daughter and daughter-to-mother.
Enough said.
I am making some changes in this area, too. I have been observing my part in a new way - I didn't think of it as drama until I noticed how dramatic someone's story is depends on who is listening. I thought I was helping but there are times when my "help" makes things worse.
ReplyDeleteAh life...full of ups and downs and drama. You've got a good sense of humour though that serves you well!
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